My main goal in life is to be unconditionally happy. My every action and consequently non-action, is governed by this rule. This causes people to judge me… sometimes fairly, most times not. 
Ghosts, Demons, and Clichés
November 23rd, 2009 by *Scarlett
Decided to use a photo of myself for this one
I suppose that I am still not over the events of this year. I throw myself into work and reemerge into the entertainment world guns blazing, all the while silently repeating clichéd affirmations like “it is better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all” or “everything happens for a reason”. Somehow though, I think these phrases are little more than a band-aid… some sort of external coverage for an internal wound. Today I went through my usual routine of remembering these phrases and I realized that whomever came up with them was a bloody idiot! How is it better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all? If you never loved at all then the pain of betrayal wouldn’t be there, the sights, smells, sounds or tastes that remind you of that special person would not haunt you. You would be free from all of that. So affirmation number one = FAIL.
As for the second, everything happens for a reason… well I have always disagreed with that. I am a country ass Irish broad, I am used to making my own destiny not relying on fate and accepting the unacceptable. When you lose a child, it hurts and a part of you dies. Tell me then, somebody, what purpose did the loss serve? What reason was there for that? There is none. It’s senseless and unexplainable.. period. There was no epic reason that the “fates” have unveiled. There was no purpose. Now don’t get me wrong, I am not in the lease bit depressed or wallowing. As a matter of fact, when I looked at this all head on, I realized that by using the “out” those two phrases provided I was going against my own nature.
I am a fighter, I always have been. More than that I am a seeker of answers. I failed at moving on because it was unclear of what all I had to leave behind. These situations, these events and traumas, they are most ghosts. The ghosts of recent past. If I don’t address them then they will surely manifest themselves into demons of my future.Oane phrase I do go by, that is not so clichéd as the others but much more my style is “It’s better to confront the ghosts of your past before they become the demons of your future” and that is exactly what I intend to do. I will stop running away by throwing myself into each and every project thrown my way and just examine, correct and eliminate ever unresolved issue of 2009. -Fin
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